Goodmorning, SHE STARES AT HIM.
MOMENTS: That feeling you get in your body when you vividly remember a memory from your child hood.you know what it feels like from then, to this moment.Its like you remember the smells, touch,& a rough draft of what everyone said.
She thinks she knows what love is based on moments like this.The emotional attachment to make everything feel right.The feeling of being comfortably numb to everything else but him.
THEIR REALITY: When people think they know your life based on a picture. Or a random stare at a public place.An awkward look that is already labeled on your forehead
MY REALITY:I like that quote “dont judge a book by its cover.” You know why? It doesnt make any sense,everyone can read that same book & every single person will still judge it.
she knows the years are flying by and still loving him.
Even though she refuses to admit that she is broken “Ive been here before”.that aching feeling at the bottom of your stomache,when you swear its your heart breaking.”its not”.
IMPORTANT NOTICE: when something tragic happens to artist. People say “they seemed so happy &excited about life”.No people,that music shuts a switch off in their head to help them temporarily stop the voices for a few minutes as they are in a state of emotional bliss.
LIFE: “life is full of changes that you cant control, so let the good &bad things happen,move on. The world doesnt stop just for you.” Easier said than done i tell him!,but the best advice i can use at this moment.
As she writes these little notes down.it helps her conquer the state of mind she will be in,for the day..(lie).but at this time,it helps that,someone out there knows what she feels. Just like every other person in the world.but in detatiled format.
SPARK OF LOVE:what makes her happy,is depending on his love and only that.feeling secure enough that if she loses it.all else fails.Again, another lie we tell ourselves everyday.
JUST BECAUSE:we tell our selves that without love from some one.We are nothing.You know its all self taught.Love is a strong word&emotion that we let our bodies believe we need it.
COMMUNICATION: I kno what your thinking.With others right?. Nope,yourself. For once talk to yourself.Its ok to fail, its okay to not be okay.Some people dont have that choice.
LOVE: back to this word.She thinks, as she stares and whispers to him quietly.”I love you & I love myself as well”.Some people make the wrong choice,that’s all. Choosing to love only that one person & not themselves as well.